By Sarah Gray
Your ability to give someone a good time is not what you are worth. You are worthy of love. Of devotion and willing attention. Of someone to look at you, being completely sincere, without wanting anything in return, saying I love you, as if it is the most reverent words they’ve ever said.
Someone looking at the formation of your tissues, muscles, bones and additions, and saying “You are who I choose.”
You are both my light and my dark. You can take my jagged edges, and sit with me as I put them back, smooth them for everyone’s view.
I can keep them rough, jagged, out of place with you. My armor of
Foundation and pretty lipstick, camouflage of mascara and just the right™️
highlight. I wear it for everyone to see
Here, here is a girl you can trust
A girl safe to love
A whole woman
A piece of flesh that may warm your bed
Here, here is the woman I am.
Armor and camouflage
The woman who will
Steal your heart
And crush it into dust
She is not here
This is the truest version of my self,
Stripped bare and bleeding just a bit
Begging for the approval that can glue me back together
(It never comes).
Who cares if the blood stains the floor, shaped like salt drops of water
The camouflage and armor are back now
The woman is not
Ms. Gray is an avid reader and is currently a general studies health pathways major at Central Virginia Community College where she works in the college’s Workforce Development department. She resides in Virginia with her cat, Jax.